I haven’t even really started blogging, and I’m already writing less.
I apologize for that.
The reason for flying under the online radar these days is that I took a forced trip to hell and back – and they’re still having difficulties with their internet connection down there.
OK, fine, I’m exaggerating. It’s just that work has been insane for the last couple weeks. In fact, it has been so for the last couple of months. I never thought I would ever put up with so much work, uncertainty or pressure. It turns out the old saying is true: we have no idea what we can do until we kinda have to.
I was microns away from quitting these days so many times that I stopped counting. I can’t take full credit for ending up not doing it. A few cool, level-headed and genuinely supportive people around me had something to do with my still receiving a paycheck, and I am grateful to them for that.
As the smoke cleared at the end of each day, I realized something.
I wanted to quit because things got tough. I was just refusing to deal with difficult situations. I was afraid I would fail. I wanted things to be easy.
I’ve been waiting for life to get easier for soo long.
And then it hit me. This is it! Life is tough by definition, for everyone. It will always be so, no matter who we are and what we are doing. The secret to an easy life is that it does not exist. I don’t care if you’re an entrepreneur or a corporate employee, senior management or washing toilets. You may be rich or poor, single or married, young or old, it really makes no difference. It is tough. Some days it will be harder than others. Add this carefully to your core script: the easy life so many of us keep waiting for won’t happen.
So I’m changing my approach. I’m living more now than in an unrealistic future or an idealized past. I’m learning and growing and experimenting and fighting and accepting and moving forward. I’m letting go of whatever I ever though my life should be like. Things are what they are, and I am working with whatever life throws at me.
When things are tough (which is like, uhmm, most of the time), we can flee, crash or stretch. Let’s choose the later.